LP und WC3

Grubby:

"In the End" from Linkin Park came up. It's a great song but especially now I felt it held such meaning for me. Indulge me, and walk with me through my interpretation of the meaning of this song for me.

(It starts with)
One thing / I don't know why
It doesn't even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind / I designed this rhyme
To explain in due time
All I know
time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
It's so unreal
Didn't look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on / but didn't even know
Wasted it all just to
Watch you go
I kept everything inside and even though I tried / it all fell apart
What it meant to me / will eventually / be a memory / of a time when I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
One thing / I don't know why
It doesn't even matter how hard you try
(I kept everything inside me: don't complain! Orc will get a break some day!)
(What it meant to me: a strong mindset only goes with a firm resolve, to hang by a thread of that which you believe will happen, Orc's just a tough spot. It's now part of a memory of a time whereby I was struggling against the tide)
(I tried so hard, and got not far, in the end, it didn't even matter, all the practice and all my resolve couldn't avail)
(I had to fall, to lose it all (IEST, WCG,..) )
(It didn't even matter how hard I tried)
Keep that in mind / I designed this rhyme
To remind myself how
I tried so hard
In spite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I'm surprised it got so (far)
Things aren't the way they were before
You wouldn't even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me
(Things aren't the way they used to be - Human / Elf dominates all tournaments, and each orc map is being systematically removed. Is there a reason that SV, LT, Maelstrom, Gnoll Wood are being dropped by many tournament organisations? What of Turtle Rock (has never ever been good for Orc), Terenas Stand (has been good against Undead for a couple of months, never been good against Human& Elf), Twisted Meadows (good map for Orc against Human only! Or so they said... guess militia creeping has something to say about this), Echo Isles (decent map)? Why have these maps stood the test of time for more than 4 years?)
(If you knew me, you knew I've never limited myself to one race. I once was Orc, until Dryad/Bear drove me to explore the possibilities of Night Elf and more importantly abandon Orc. I once was Elf until I decided a human was going to win WCG 2003 for sure- I wanted to be that human and I got closer than I ever could've with Night Elf. I once was Human, until I decided TFT offered new possibilities to the Orc race, my first love, and I solidified my presence in the scene with Orc. Many players see switching race as a weakness - I allow you your beliefs without passing judgment. I see the choice of switching race as a strength, one that inspires creativity, offers enjoyment, stimulates new thought processes, keeps opponents off-balance and can create chance where before you saw only defeat. You can not convince me that changing race is a weakness. Sticking with a strategy, or race, where you know it leads to defeat, is a weakness. Now it all comes back to me, and I wonder if I shall take a look on the other side.)
In the end
You kept everything inside and even though I tried / it all fell apart
What it meant to me / will eventually / be a memory / of a time when I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There's only one thing you should know
(I put my trust in Orc, and have pushed as far as I can go. For all this, there's only one thing you should know: until a patch comes along, and blizzard remembers this god-forsaken game, forget the identity that you have come to associate with me. I am an entertainer, but I am also an individual. The choices that I make ultimately affect myself the most.)
I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There's only one thing you should know
I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
(In the end, it doesn't even matter whether I win or lose. As long as I enjoy the game and make choices that feel right to me. To live with no regrets, is the greatest joy you can feel. You die alone, with the choices that you have made. Allow me mine.)

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